The Thoughts

Of an 18 year old who is a bit frustrated

People

I wonder if they ever really know whats going on with me

People are talking about Madeline a lot these days and it hurts, because I miss her so much. Sometimes I wonder if she was still here if she would love me. I am not sure if I am capable of love. My heart is a wound, but I won’t let them see that. I will not break yet. I will keep going and one day maybe this pain will be gone. Until then I will smile and shake their hands.

I’m an artist, I guess, but it’s born from a personal necessity to make something that feels like it’s ripping a hole in the sky, you know, so just go for what seems to be the most urgent sonic statement I can.

—M. Gira (via thatwhileifound)

Michael's apology

jehnnybeth:

On the 22nd of June, we drove from London and arrived in Holland at Best Kept Secret festival around 6pm. Swans were playing on Stage 1.

I’ve seen Swans quite a few times this year. This time from side of stage I saw things I had never noticed before. Like how much they communicate between each…

Michael Gira

—God Damn the Sun

signal-dive:

Michael Gira - Songs For A Dog (2000)

"Lyrically the tracks remain largely biographical, in parts real and imaginary, alongside tributes to friends and acquaintances, though not without their emotional pull on the listener. […] Songs For A Dog, an album that reveals, to those yet unenlightened, that at the core Michael Gira is one hell of a gifted songwriter. All told, it’s stark intimacy is overpowering."

— via Tony of Compulsion Review [Detail]

(Source: signals-dive)

Mainly, I just wanted an excuse to rage.

—Michael Gira in Kill Your Idols on Swans’ early work (via oneweekoneband)

Michael Gira

—Why I Ate My Wife

yourwordisworthless:

I heard your voice in my mind - you were Iying
I saw you under the door - you were sleeping
An ocean bleeds in your veins - now you’re melting
Your hand holds onto the sun - protecting
The air is red and cold - in your insides
I feel your tongue in my mind - caressing
I feel your eyes in mine - remembering
You peel my body away - you’re emerging
I put my mouth on your name - and I swallowed
I heard a sound in your chest - it was hollow
Your hand was under my skin - yes l’m fallow
I’ll curl my body inside - to see through you
I love you more than my mind - but l’m Iying
I can’t remember the words - but I loved you
I can’t remember my name - you live through me
I can’t remember the words - now l’m Iying
I can’t go on with the song - but you’re singing.